WEIGH IN #12 (OH I am a HAPPY GIRL!!!)And various stuff

Weigh in #12

- 3.5 lbs!!!

WOW!!!

That brings my total to 24.5 lbs gone THIS year!

WOW!

That's 6.5lbs more than my 6month old!

I am quite happy with that! Sure, it's not "biggest loser" style but it's REAL and shows my hardwork, while living a normal life, is paying off! LOVE IT!!!

-24.5lbs and -30 INCHES! So far so good!!!

I am so glad I didn't give up when I gained that half a pound last week! I was so tempted to just forget it! This is seriously a hard thing even though I've been faithful with it 98% of the past 12weeks, it's still not EASY.

Will it ever be?

Will I ever not find myself wanting to sneak bites and snacks? Will I ever see an amazing cake and not feel a strong almost uncontrolable (sometimes uncontrolable) urge to eat it? Will I ever EAT to LIVE and NOT live to eat??? Only time will tell....but I've gotten better at it! Yup, I sure have! :)

I've been following the Daniel Fast for 6days (day 6 is ending as I type) and my o my has it been a change. I feel like I am really learning how to control my eating and my choices while I am doing this so that's a bonus. Sadly, I still feel that when this fast is over, I will still be pulled toward those bad habits that left me MORBIDly obese to begin with. But I am praying and walking this out one day at a time.

If you've had a bad week or a bad weigh in (or 2+bad weeks or weigh ins etc) please know that if I can do this, you can! I am 32 years old and 90% of my life I've eaten GARBAGE and my body showed it! But I am so glad to be going down in clothing sizes, inches, pounds and going up in energy, hope, health etc. That it's worth it.

Do I still want some foods so badly they bring me to tears resisting them, some times. Do I still want to stop by the bakery and treat myself to a comforting muffin or cookie? Sometimes, especially on days like today when my kids (who are amazing and adorable and I love beyond words) were sooooooooo hard to deal with! I'd love a cup of coffee and a big ole brownie!! But in the end, that brownie will NOT help me deal with my kids.

A great quote I've read online for such a thing is "If hunger isn't your problem, than food is not your answer" GREAT!!! Even when it feels like food is the answer. The answer to your stress, worry, fear, tiredness, etc, bad foods will actually make all of that worse! Don't DO IT!

Find some other way to deal, for me, I cry out to Jesus! Drink a hot cup of herbal tea, decaf coffee, read a book, hide in the bathroom a few minutes, youtube an old favorite song, repeat scriptures I've memorized etc. There are ways! You (and I) deserve to be healthy and strong and not die young because we made stupid eating choices.

I, for one, do not want my tombstone to read " Here Lays FatGirl she lived she ate a lot and she died" ummm NO!!! There is so much more to life and I will LIVE IT!

So, woohoooo for my amazing weigh and onward I go!

You coming? :)

Overdo Weigh In results and measurements taken!! :)

Weigh in Results for Week 12 = UP .5 lbs

YUP...I gained! YUCK

BUT:

I know that I didn't gain FAT!

See it's mathmatically not possible...nope it's not! I burned OVER 3800 calories and ate VERY well within my ranges. 3500 calories equal ONE pound so I burned at least one pound and ate within ranges. BUT I did eat a lot of high sodium foods and I hadn't had a bowel movement in days! So..I tracked the +.5 and tried to move on....TRIED!

It seems that somehow the gain and the sugar I allowed myself (within my calorie range) triggered a beast of eating again! UGH! I didn't "binge" the old way but I surely binged! It started slowly and kept on sliding doooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwnnnnnn hill! Friday was Weigh and I ate my normal salty high calorie foods for the week...but it didn't stop there. Saturday I hate HORRIBLY and felt so sick! I don't even really remember much of what I ate. Sad but true! I know I snuck food for the first time in MONTHS! :(

Sneak/secret eating is sooooo bad! It's horrible to know what you're doing is killing you and adding to the fat you're fighting and then do it anyway. I tried very hard to love the big ole donut I was eating the store parking lot before going home. I tried! But know matter what, I knew better!

I was picturing all the time I'd have to spend on my elliptical to burn it off, remembering all the hours of hard work I've put in etc...and I was so sad and heavy hearted but I ate it anyway!!!

Why? I don't really know...but I own it. I did it! And I hate it! But I hadn't done it for months till then and God willing, I won't do it again!

So the good news.... I took my monthly measurements! I checked and over the course of the last month, with ups and downs on the scale, I'm only down 2.5lbs or so. WHAT?!?!? BUT I lost 12.5 INCHES!!! In a month!!! WOOHOOO!!!

12.5 INCHES in one month!!! I'm so happy!

I did further math and it seems I have lost 30 INCHES since January 1st this year! WOW!!!!

What does that mean? That means I will NOT let a seemingly bad week on the scale RUIN my healthy lifestyle! I am likely bulking up my muscles and therefore the scale will look up and down from time to time but I'm SHRINKING!!! The tape measure doesn't lie!!!

So onward I go!!!

WEIGH IN and Pictures to help VISUALIZE :)

WEIGH IN #10

I lost 2 POUNDS!!!

Which is 8 Sticks of BUTTER!!!

See:

I'm quite content with that!


It beats getting fatter!

Speaking of getting fatter, I found some photos to show other amounts of fat and O-M-G it's DISGUSTING!!! (to date, since Jan.1st 2010, I've lost 21.5lbs) Wanna see??

Now, as proud and happy as I am that I no longer have THAT on my body, around my heart, squeezing my organs, etc. I still have to lose 100+lbs....see?

GROSS

I'm learning not to dispise small steps that lead to large rewards! I could have weight loss surgery and lose faster BUT I wouldn't be learning so much AND I'd likely have to lose a gall bladder etc. (I am not against WLS but it's not for me right now) I've set aside this year, God willing, to seriously attack the fat on my body with ALL I have in me. Should I fail, which is NOT an option, I will look into surgery. This fat is killing me so I'm kicking it out!

NSV aka "Non-Scale Victories" have been really fun lately!
-My size 24's are all getting way too big!
-ALL my 22's fit GREAT!
-MY 20's are up and should be buttoned in 10lbs or so.
-My wedding rings are now able to get past my knuckle and ALMOST on! (huge goal for me is to wear them by my anniversary in July)
Etc.

So onward I go!

OH OH OH OH

Can't forget to make an annoucement

that I have not only reached my first 20lbs lost

goal this week but blew by it with 21.5 total lost so far!

WOOOOOHOOOOOO!

I'm buying a necklace!

My reward chart (that I made) says so!

Next goal is to beat a buddy to 279 AND

to get my 10% reward! (273.6 I think)

YIPPPEEE!!!!

To GOD be the GLORY! I couldn't do this without HIM!!!