Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Seriously need HELP!?!?!? I hate being fat but....

I just can't seem to shake it! I stick with a plan a few days and do great and than POOF....
I fall and fall hard....

Hello binge my old enemy!! Oh you brought sugar with you? GREAT you two are my all time favorites.........grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I heard (and was reminded) that we get addicted to sugar like drug addicts get hooked on drugs. WOW that still amazes me! But it does fill a void and give a sort of "high" so it makes sense. And I HATE that is makes sense.

I have PCOS and a list of other freakin hair is getting thinner daily and I HATE IT! I have just about zero muscle tone left after my 3 back to back babies and I have NO energy.


I know that wisdom, and lots of research, say that I should cut out ALL sugar and lower my carbs and EXERCISE....but I seem to be scared or something.....why?

Am I more scared to actually find the healthy me or scare to lose who I've been for my ENTIRE life? Scared to fail....again?

I should be more scared of dying young, going bald, never having another baby, leaving my babies behind when they need me, heart attacks, etc....but I seem to have a root issue that I've not yet figured out.

So...I wait...and stall and that's STUPID!

My house will be cleaned before monday and ALL UNPACKED and I will be working out! And I WILL get all my water in daily!

I will NOT be so afraid to live that I kill myself with my eating and lazy lifestyle! NOPE!!



  1. Listen, Girl, YOU CAN DO THIS. I have the same issues, and yes, we all fail at time,s but YOU CAN DO THIS.
    I;ve been fat for 33 years. I'm sacred too. But you are right, not doingit is gonna kill you. And then you'll never live. I cna be your buddy, if you let me. You're not alone, and I promise, YOU CAN DO THIS

  2. You CAN do this!! Hang in there lady!

  3. Wow, I could of written your post. I know exactly how you feel. I get it. Oh, do I get it. We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us!!


  4. Hey, where are you??? I'm watching and sitting here jsut waiting to help! Please contact me so we can be weight loss buddies, and neither one of us will have to do this alone!

  5. Now that sounds like real determination! I wish you well.

    (I can also hear myself in your words. There are so many great reasons to lose the weight - SO WHY AM I STALLING?)

  6. Just checking on ya -
    Hope all is well!

  7. You can do it!!! Everyone has bad days where we eat too much and do too little, when this happens, don't dwell on it, just start a new day fresh as a daisy. We're human, we slip up, but you will succeed!

    Keep up the good work! It will definitely be worth it, I love reading your blog :)



  8. Hey there, I just landed on your page for the first time and saw that your last post was awhile ago... come back!! I just started blogging and it is really helping me stay motivated. We can motivate each other! Hope to hear from you!