WIDE LOAD and "my plan"

Ok Folks, I'm back! I love this photo (above) because it's my LIFE! Well, my life as a size ZERO but I digress. I am always beyond busy. If there were awards for multi tasker of the year I have no doubt moms would win EVERY time! (oh and to make the above photo more life like you'd have to add 3 more kids under my feet while I'm cooking/cleaning etc.) MAN! The calories I burn! I should be a zero by now! Ohhhhh wait....I EAT too much! DUH!!! :)

Or, at least I USED to eat too much!

I've been on Weight Watchers for about 9wks now. (God only knows how many times I've joined before, seems to always end with me getting pregnant) I have been logging my points on Sparkpeople to see where I fall on daily calorie intake. It's my hope to switch over to that once my prepaid WW time is up. I've been great sticking to the plan and working out. See some stats:

I eat on average 1600 calories a day
I burn about 2700-3000+ calories a week in exercise! (thank you heartrate monitor!)
I sweat like a HOG in the Arizona heat! (I don't live there but I hear it's HOT)
I drink AT least 72oz of water daily. Trying to get back up to 120+oz daily.
I pee a lot!
I take vitamins: cinnamon, 5HTP, One A Day, Fiber, Fish Oil
I PRAY a LOT!
I do NOT give up! (not this time!!!!)

So, that's my plan!

I try to limit the carbs I eat and the sugar as well. I get most my carbs from fruit and whole grains such as Steel Cut Oats! (love em!!!) And I use Stevia and other low GI natural sweeteners 9 times out of 10)

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I took some REALLY REAL ROLLY POLLY ICKY FAT PICS! I need them! I need to see what I'm really dealing with and not just the odd messed up strangely unreal image I see in the mirror. Photos have a way of shocking your brain back to real life. Take the one below for example, I knew my big ole butt was HUGE because of the big black and blue spots I get forcing it into most waiting room chairs, or how the chairs STICK TO MY BUTT when I try to get up. OH MY GOSH (I hate that!!!) BUT this photo......




Speaks for itself! WOW!!! WIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIDE or what? Dear God HELP ME! (and you will see I highlighted the super annoying elbow fat for you as well!)

I should hold up a small object (or large for that matter) to give you an idea just what you're looking at! (maybe a YARD STICK) OH MY GOSH! EYE opener for sure! (I would like to add, that there is a HUGE ring of sweat from a great workout on this photo though!!!)


Tata for now!

The Beginning!

There are countless fat people just like me who think and feel so much and yet the general public has NO idea!

For example: What fat person do you know who actually likes to hear "oh you've got such a pretty face though" OR equally as annoying "you have such a great personality".

I mean REALLY people??!?! Come ON!

What that translates to in most fat minds (mine included) is "dang! the rest of you is HUGE but at least your face is tolerable" and "you'll forever be everybody's friend and never find love" blah blah blah blah.

Can you people who say those things step back and THINK for one hot minute? What do you mean when you say that? How do you think it's being received? Sincerely? Not out of habit or TRYING to be kind. Think at it from a cold hard fact standpoint.

And STOP saying it! GRRRRRR!

Now, the reason I am starting this blog. Well, I am fat and I have a pretty face! And I am soooooooo DONE with that bologna! I will work and work and pray and pray to get a body that matches or surpasses the pretty face that I have. I will have a nice body to go with my nice personality. I will be healthy and live a long life (God willing). This is my journey!

I will learn how to post photos and be VERY blunt! Maybe to the point of making people vomit by seeing fat rolls on my back or really opening somebody's eyes to the REAL struggle that food addiction is.

That's another thing. Society loves to complain about fat people (strange since most of our population is overweight) and they love to say things like "well they should just eat less and move more" blah blah blah on and on they go. BUT how many people really stop and think long enough to realize that FOOD ADDICTION is a huge problem for so many of us?

Just because drugs and alcohol have more obvious dangers that doesn't, or at least shouldn't, lessen the attention food addiction receives. It is killing fat people left and right and I hear ALL the time how much fat folks cost our nation. Well DUH!!!! It's a problem! It should be treated more seriously!

Not that all fat folks have a true addiction, there are some who are just lazy, some with medical issues to fight against, etc. But many of us, most of us I dare say, are addicted. Whether for comfort or joy or what have you...we run to food when others would run to the bar or drug dealer. It's REAL!

So, join me if you dare as I continue my journey to NO longer be the "fat girl with the pretty face" but to be the healthy, God fearing, engery filled mommy of 4 and wife of 1!

Comments and feedback are always welcome!

Here we go!